Well, I did it.

I did BEDA. Despite expecting to fail by the first week, I finished without even missing a day.

I'll probably end up doing this again in August. I'll have a lot more free time without school, so it might even feel like less of a chore. There's also a chance I won't. I like to hope this has started a habit of me trying to blog more consistently, but it's unlikely. I'm going to try to keep at least 3 posts a week though. No promises.

I definitely learned a bit over the month. I learned that actually putting out good content more often than "when the mood hits me" is hard. I also learned it can be possible. However, I did also learn I can also post a lot of shit.

I'm going to be taking a few days off posting just because of needing a break. After that, I promise I'll be back. With semi-regular updates.

Thanks for sticking around guys!

Because positivity would be a plus.

Because I'm feeling negative, and need exciting things to focus on, here. Let's have a list of things to be excited for! Yay.

Things Brae is Excited for:

1) Graduating. Not the stupid "Walk across the stage a month before we actually decide if you passed" and definitely not for the banquet I'm not even attending, but June 10th, my last day of classes. And June... 22nd? My last exam.
2) Going to Florida this August. I like Florida. It's a fun place. I want to go.
3) Buying my new camera. I'm saving for it right now, and finally not having a terrible one will rock.
4)My birthday! I do realize it's not for like 7 months. But I'm allowed to be excited now, because it will be fun and exciting and I will be 18 and legal here. ^_^
5) Watching Pokemon movies. My friend gave me a DVD set that had 4 of the movies in it, and I get to watch them all. Yay!
6) Summer. 2 months of doing nothing? Yes pleeeease.
7) My mom to get back from Vegas. Really. I'm all for freedom but I don't like this.

I'm sure there are more, but that's all for today. I need sleep. :) Goodnight everyone!

People who actually blog this much all the time are crazy.

IT HAS BEEN 28 DAYS HOW CAN YOU EXPECT ME TO FIND MORE TO WRITE ABOUT.

I apologize. Had to get that part of of my system.

Tomorrow will be the start of "Brae's first time being all alone for over one night" as my mom leaves for Vegas (AGAIN. Did I post about this before? I feel like I did) and I am a bit terrified. My sister will be home 2 of the nights, and I either get one of my friends one night and one the next... or just of my friends one of the nights. The awkwardness that would occur if they were both there at the same time would eat my soul alive.

Something absolutely hilarious did hit me today. I have two friends I used to be very close with (at different times though) that both live in Orlando. In case you forgot, I'll be in Orlando this summer. However, I am not on speaking terms with either of them anymore. What makes it so funny though, is both of them had both really wanted to hang out with me but I had no way to be there. And now... Yup.

Also. The happy weather we had earlier this week? It's all gone today. It's almost May. It's SNOWING. Calgary, why must you do this to me? I am so done with cold and snow. I want to wear t-shirts and dresses. Not sweaters.

Okay Apple. I forgive you.

I got an email from Apple today. Yay.

They said it can be an "alarming" to find purchases made on your account without your knowledge. Honestly, I'm tempted to agree with them. :P While they weren't able to refund all of the money, they're refunding the $24-ish dollars that was spent on poker chips on that stupid poker app (WTF THOUGH SERIOUSLY) and one of the other things for about $4. So. That's always exciting.

My account also was locked down to prevent any further damage. As I read that, I thought to myself "They already snipped my money, what other damage can they do?" before I remembered it's under my mom's name and out address and such. Then I decided I was very, very glad my mom's credit card wasn't linked to the account in anyway. That could have suuucked.

Other than Apple deciding to be nice... I've had a pretty uneventful day. Unless you want to consider the lovely argument I had with my ex-boyfriend, but I don't. Let's just say I don't think my personality is horrible. ^_^ Oh well. I'll get over it. :P

Gerard Smith, we'll miss you, man.

On the 20th this month, the bassist of TV on the Radio, Gerard Smith, passed away from lung cancer. At age 34.

About a month before this, it'd been announced he wasn't going to be going on tour with the rest of the band. It was said then that he was battling lung cancer. It also said he had health insurance and was receiving excellent care. I already was scared then. I know lung cancer doesn't just "go away."

After that, I didn't hear anything about Gerard. I just sent the band my best wishes.

Finding out Gerard hadn't made it even a month though hit me very hard. Hell, it's even hard to try to type this. I'd been listening to their newest album when I decided to look at the TV on the Radio website, and saw this:

"We are very sad to announce the death of our beloved friend and bandmate, Gerard Smith, following a courageous fight against lung cancer. Gerard passed away the morning of April 20th, 2011. We will miss him terribly." - TV on the Radio

We will miss him terribly.

Going through various articles posted since his death makes the pain of it seem more real. It actually happened. I'm scared for what might happen to my favourite band now. I can't imagine how much pain they're going through. Gerard was a friend to them.

On videos I've seen of their live performances, Gerard always was in the back. Facing away, towards his amp. The first time I saw a video of it, I was a bit confused. I still to this day don't understand if it was something related to bass sound (I'm not a musician) or if maybe he was just shy. Either way, watching one of the videos now and just seeing him there, in the back, playing his bass, fills my eyes with tears.

RIP Gerard. <3

FRIENDS OFF, APPLE.

Yup Apple. Friends OFF.

My iTunes account got hacked, or something. There was a 24-ish dollar purchase made on... poker chips. In some stupid poker app. WTF?




That isn't the only AWESOME unauthorized purchase. The bottom thing on there, some Archaic-something, was also not made by me. There was apparently some Pumpkin Camera shit? Or something? That was bought. Yay me.

I reported it all to Apple, but it still happened, I'm still mad, and I still can't buy stuff on iTunes now, ruining my grand plan that I had for today.

On the bright side, I have a cat in my lap being adorable. I have a friend who'd been avoiding me talking to me again. I might get my money back from Apple.

Things could be a lot worse.

I'm a "What if" kind of person

I will explain what I mean by that a bit better, but I need to start off with a story that made me realize many times, my what if's are never going to be true.

I've been friends with somebody, who we'll refer to as "R" for awhile now. His name does not start with R, stop trying to guess who it is. Anyway, I've known him since late 2008 or early 2009. We met online, as it is with many people that I know. The big difference with R and I was we had something in common- we'd both grown up in the same place.

We hadn't known each other, as he had moved to a completely different continent when he was 8 or 9, meaning I would have been 7 or 8. We'd also lived on completely opposite sides of the city, and my little 8 year old mind couldn't imagine anything bigger than my house and my school- let alone the other side of the city.

We hit it off as pretty good friends right away. Despite the fact our time difference put us about 10 to 12 hours difference, we'd usually see each other every other day or so in game, and especially on weekends.

Now is the point where I have to explain on why I'm such a "What if" person. For most of these friends I make online, such as R, there's a huge distance between us. Physically. Which can sometimes lead to us growing emotionally close. At the point of being such good friends, so emotionally close, I always think to myself "what if they lived here? Would things be different? Would we be different? More?"

Now with the way I worded that, I've now described myself as some desperate loser who just looks for people to hook up with on the internet - and I am most definitely not. I'm not saying this happens with every single person that I talk to. I promise. It's been a very small, select few. However, the small, select few have been enough for me to pick that fact up about myself.

Back to R.

He was one of those people. We stayed this good of friends for a long time. All of 2009. All of 2010, when he graduated high school and took half a year off. Enter 2011. Remember that R grew up at the same place I did, but moved when he was much younger? In early 2011, he moved back to go to college here. And suddenly, my giant "What if he lived here?" was happening.

Nothing did happen. We stayed best friends. We hang out once in awhile in real life. We still talk in game. I still occasionally think to myself "well, what if?" but by now, I do realize nothing well come of it.

Seeing nothing change though has changed a lot of how I look at my other friends. It's changed how I consider myself as well. It's made me think I read into things, because I did genuinely imagine some kind of different outcome. Can't change how things happened this time though.

My cake!

I had cake today. It was not as good as I imagined. As I expected.

Today was a pretty low-key day. I got some Easter chocolate and ate most of that, so between my chocolate and cake, my stomach is feeling a bit rocky. As I type this right now, I'm sitting on skype with a few of my gaming friends and discussing strategies for tomorrow.

I haven't sat down and talked to one of these guys for about a year. It's pretty nice to just talk gaming, and then other stuff, with him. He's one of those guy's who's super mean to everyone, but it's because he actually likes you. He's one of the only people who I let insult me without getting offended. :P

To be perfectly honest, everything else that's flopping around inside my head right now isn't really appropriate to put on my blog, because most of it is emotional shit I'm not sure of right now. :P

Goodnight blog. I promise to be more exciting tomorrow.

Cake cake cake.

Update on Minecraft: The server is up. Yaaay. Notch is still breaking the game, but it's unbroken enough for programmers to deal with it.

I've been having a lot of cravings for cake the past few day. Today was no exception. It was not made any better by this video appearing in my subscription box. For those too lazy to click, it's a Minecraft dirt/grass block. As cake. I want it, please and thank you!

I normally don't even particularly enjoy cake. I only really eat it on my birthday and my friend's birthdays. And I'll only eat chocolate cake. Or ice cream cake, but that doesn't really count. For some reason though, I've just really wanted to eat some.

I know as soon as I do, I'll be dramatically disappointed at how not-delicious it is compared to my mind.

Madonna is a good blogging soundtrack.

Update on Minecraft: Something Notch did made it possible to load my original save. However, server software for updating multiplayer still isn't up. Nin said he'll try again later.

Tonight's the first night in awhile I've been able to just sit and relax and not worry about doing homework. I have tomorrow off for Good Friday, which essentially just means I'll be up until about 5AM playing WoW or watching movies.

Today is also the first day this week I've actually felt something like myself, which is probably due to my best friend being the amazing guy he is. He really just fixed everything that's been going wrong this week and reminded me of the bright light that, I really only have less than 2 months left of high school.

In other news, my family and I decided when and where our next vacation will be. My mom, sister and I will be going to Orlando, Florida. We leave the 20th of August and come back the 27th. Just in time to get ready to start school at Lethbridge. Yay me.

OH MY GOD. Blogger decided to log me out there and delete the rest of this post. TECHNOLOGY. WHY DO YOU HATE ME.

Messy, messy mess.

My room is a mess, and I have no motivation to clean it. I hate messes. But I have no motivation to do anything.

In case anyone somehow missed it, I'm having a terrible week. I don't really want to throw ALL OF IT OUT ON TO THE INTERNET AND OMG PLEASE FEEL SORRY FOR ME, so I won't. I won't bring up all the big stuff, and instead just say- Notch, you broke my favourite game.

Now, in all technicalities, 1.5 didn't break Minecraft completely. It feels very broken to me though. For one, my main save file is gone. Boom. Deleted. I have it backed up somewhere, but it won't open when I try to.. play. For another, whatever the hell he rushed to get it out so fast so he could play Portal 2 made it so the server updating software? Isn't...happening. So I can't play multiplayer. I love multiplayer.

I'm a bit annoyed about that, but otherwise
This is where I stopped blogging and went to watch the first Digimon movie, and gave up with whatever point I wanted to make.

Now, I'm just going to say this- I love Pokemon. I don't get why so many people don't think you can love both Pokemon and Digimon. Did we clear that up? Good. Because really, how can you not think this is adorable?



Yeah, I thought so. Gatomon is adorable.

The first Digimon movie reminds me of how much more awesome life was when I was a kid. I mean really, I remember being on the edge of my seat during the countdown to destroy that virus-y one. I love Digimon. I miss this shit.

More homework.

I'm really bad at doing my homework when I need too, leading me to stay up too late finishing it. Which leads to me getting distracted and doing pointless, non homework related things.

Examples of Non-Homework Things I've Done Instead of Homework

1) Sing The Gummy Bear song. Loudly.
2) Spam Twitter with the Gummy Bear song.
3) Spam my best friend with The Gummy Bear song.
4) Finally closing The Gummy Bear song and turning The Lion King on as background noise.
5) Creating a new Minecraft world so I can feel like I earned some of the achievements.
6) Spamming my best friend about putting up the multiplayer Minecraft server so I can play with weather.
7) Singing The Circle of Life loudly enough to wake up my cat.
8) Googling myself.
9) Getting myself another bottle of water, just as an excuse to get up.
10) Reminding myself to get around to finally watching Tangled. Seriously, everyone seems to love it.
11) Trying to roar like a lion.
12) Giving up and going back to mucking around in homework.


Aside from being so lazy at homework, today was a relatively decent day. I actually feel like I have a half grasp on what we're doing in biology right now, despite getting 0/6 on my quiz. I can explain though - it was 2 multiple choice questions, but we had to show work. If you did the work but got the wrong answer? 0/3 that question. Wrong work, but right answer? 0/3 that question. I messed up the first one by CIRCLING the wrong answer, and did the second one wrong by thinking it was GREEN birds, not blue.

Stupid genetics unit.

My lips have been so badly chapped for a week now, despite the fact I've used a ton of chapstick. It's getting really annoying. And slightly painful.

Alright, I'm going back to failing at doing homework. Have fun everyone!

Watching The Lion King

Seriously, The Lion King is my favourite movie of all time. Forget everything else I've ever said I loved (okay, don't. I love those too). The Lion King is a classic. Did you know my old math teacher had never even seen it? Sad.

It's been a little while since I watched it, since I don't own my old VHS tapes, and I lent my DVD to a boyfriend who I broke up with, and that jerk never returned it. So imagine my happiness when I was messing around, going through people's tumblr's (a site I don't quite understand how to set up, so mine is...nonexistent) and found out a link to the whole thing posted, omgomgomg. None of that "Part I" bullshit. Bam. Lion King.


Edit: I removed the embedded because the guy who uploaded it said he was likely taking it down like, tomorrow. So you can settle for a link I hope.

LIFE'S NOT FAIR, IS IT?

For one thing, Scar is probably the most badass villain in anything, ever. Say what you will about his lack of actual power - a chart about which demonstrated here:



(I miss that blog. Image credit belongs to www.cwsargeras.com.)


No though. That lion knew how to do his shit. He didn't use scary muscles. He used his own cunning mind. His way with words. He made Simba run off with just one little sentence. BAM. His plan for Simba to get himself killed in the elephant graveyard? He wasn't even IMPLICATED. He gets Simba curious by telling him what's there, and gets him to not even tell Mufasa on him!

Another thing: Nala? She is probably the greatest chick in the world. She goes off to try to save her tribe, and finds Simba, who's supposed to be dead. She was like "YO SIMBA. STOP BEING DUMB" when he didn't want to come back, but didn't waste her time with him when he didn't seem like he'd budge.

In all honesty, no other Disney movie still makes me cry as hard as the scene where Simba finds Mufasa dead. No other Disney characters inspire me as much as Simba, Nala, and all the others. Props to Disney for making the greatest movie ever.

A week of homework...

In one day, is not a good idea.

I've spent all of today on and off doing homework. And plan to spend the rest of the night doing it. As such, my brain is so full of English homework about poetry I don't particularly care about, I have nothing exciting to say. So... first 10 things that come to my mind, go!

1) I am super, super excited for The Hobbit movie. I'm a massive LOTR nerd, and it... looks like it's going to be good.
2) I know I don't like talking about gaming on here, but... Tanking Heroic Chimereon was terrifying tonight. I had to watch CDs and watch the other tank's HP and his Double Attacks and... yeah. Scary.
3) There's a cupcake sitting on my desk. I would like to eat it. I think I will do that.
4) I'm kind of considering staying up all night to do homework, but I'd rather sleep.
5) I definitely have no focus on anything ever, whatsoever.
6) I don't like arguing.
7) I can't blog. :( /deleteblog.

Why I can't blog.

Blog Posts I've Attempted to Write Today

1. "Why Popcorn is the Most Delicious Food in Forever"
2. "Gaming, and Why It's Kinda The Best"
3. "Why I don't Write a Gaming Blog"
4. "Vegas, Again"
5. "Why TV on the Radio songs are so sexy"
6. "Why I can't blog"

Yup, it's past the halfway point on BEDA, and I almost gave up today. Meaning I would have lost, and I would have been mad at myself. Soooo.... yup.

That is why today's blog post is on the attempted list.

Airport signs are taunting

Evil, I tell you. They mock you as you walk.

I promise the Vegas recapping finishing is coming. I just have a mind blank today.

We got into Calgary today around like, 12:30 AM. I don't know the exact time, just that I was groggy and half asleep from using Gravol to sleep the whole plane ride. I was definitely not ready for a line up at customs, and even more not ready for the rude signs on the way there.

It starts out safe. You don't get any for the first 30 seconds. But then you get the first one. These signs know how long it's going to take you before it's time for your massive line, you see. And these signs lead a pretty boring existence, just watching people walk by them to go to this line. So they start mocking you.

"You are 6 minutes and 45 seconds away from Canadian customs" the first one will tell you. You think, "Alright, cool" as you continue to walk. About 15 seconds later, you stumble upon the second sign. "You are 6 minutes and 30 seconds away from Canadian customs."

You blink at this sign, wondering why the redundancy. You wonder why you need signs to tell you how far away you are. The signs continue onwards down this 7 minute-ish long hallway. Some of them are 30 seconds apart. Some are 15 seconds. Some are 25 seconds. But they're there, the whole time. Mocking that you have an annoyingly long hallway, and that you're tired, and you have a line up to get into the country ahead.

Stupid signs.

Thank you, airport

...for having wireless.

We got to the airport early, and since we are so very early, I decided to take my time to blog now, rather than have to rush later. This is both a blessing and a curse, as I have nothing to talk about (aside the final trip recap). It's a blessing as in, lots of time to finish! A curse as I have no excuse for it sucking.

No matter.

We're currently sitting around. I'm blogging, my sister is reading, and my mom is driving up her work-paid cell phone bill by texting. The guy across from us is also on his iPad and I can't help but keep sneaking looks over to try to see what he's doing. I'm creepy, I know. While we aren't on the plane yet, my stomach is starting to get that feeling it gets before and on airplanes. Icky and blah.

The people across and right of us have 2 little puppies in transport crate things. They are suuuuper cute. One is out of his crate and curled up on the woman's lap. It makes me really miss Midnight. I'm honestly more excited to see my cat than anyone.

Apparently it snowed while I was gone. Not looking forward to seeing snow. I hate snow. It's cold and icky.

...I got nothing else. See everyone tomorrow! <3

My IPad deleted my post.

So because it did that, there is no good post today. Just a mini post.

I just finished drinking a yummy Starbucks and am considering a nap. Tonight we go to a show. I'm also massively craving ice cream. Again. :P I have a teeny bit of a sunburn which is stinging, and I wish I could take a nap. I bought pretzel M&M's, which I hadn't seen in Canada, and they weren't too bad.

This post is so bad. Angst angst angst. I'm lonely. This can't even qualify as a blog post....stupid iPad.

Ice cream is delicious

Day One of Vegas is half-ish done.

Last night, after we landed, we got to our hotel and had a bit of a scare. The uninformed idiot at the front desk told us that there was no Wi-Fi... Yuuuuuup. We were about to be mad, until when we were up in the room, my mom said to check. I did. There was internet (aka the reason you're reading this).

After that fiasco, we changed into clothes that actually weren't made for winter and I took my mom on the roller coaster at New York, New York. She claims now that she did it, she wasn't nervous at all, but she was terrified. She did end up loving it though. I personally love all roller coasters, so it was fun for me as well.

By then, we were honestly just exhausted, and went to bed early. I ended up waking up around 7AM though, and was dressed before my mom was even out of bed. We went down to eat breakfast at the buffet in the hotel. I did, in fact, end up eating way too much bacon. As my sister said, "We're in the only country in the world you can get a plate of bacon without weird looks."

Once we were done eating, we took a cab over to the Mirage so we could see the pretty tigers. However, we got there about an hour early, and ended up walking around there, Treasure Island and The Wynn. The Wynn is super super pretty, but super expensive. Either way, I'd stay there if I had that kind of money.

We then went to see said pretty kitties, and also some pretty dolphins. I bought one of my friend's presents, decided I want a pet dolphin, decided I want to BE a tiger, and came back to the hotel. We were only here long enough for me to change into some leggings, because my dress made me way too self conscious around creepy guys, and we were off again. This time, we were clothes shopping! And shoes. I bought a new pair of flats, runners, 2 hoodies, a Pikachu tshirt, and a Hunger Games shirt. I was definitely most excited about that last one. :P

Finally... we were ready to go back to the hotel. Our hotel has an ice cream place however, so I am currently licking a delicious Java Chip cone right now! Tonight is dinner at the only food place that I truly feel any love for, and some more shopping. And the M&M store.

I miss everybody lots, hope Calgary weather is TONS of fun!

Vegas!

Airplane blogging is most definitely not my preferred blogging style.

I'm currently on the plane to Vegas. I have the window seat, which is always fun. Sadly though, my Gravol (hmm, is that what it's called?) is not putting me to sleep like it usually does. Wiiiiiiide awake.

My sister and I are watching Dancing with the Stars. The guy just made a Charlie Sheen reference. WINNING! I'm obviously the only person who still finds that funny. I still think Friday is funny too though. :D 

A lot of people wouldn't guess this about me, due to my roller coaster addiction, but I get extremely plane sick. That is why I'm taking Gravol. I'm doing decently right now, just a teeny bit of queasiness... I'll be okay though. I'm keeping
 focused on TV and blogging so I am okay.

I'm posting this when we land, and.... I miss Internet. I miss tweeting. :( 

This time tomorrow...

I will be somewhere much warmer. And by much warmer, I mean Las Vegas.

Today was mostly a day of preparation. We started out the day by redyeing my hair. I am a natural blonde, yes, but my natural colour is a dark blonde. I try to keep my hair a medium to light blonde. Therefore, my roots look very obvious unless I dye it. So we did that!

Next, we went shopping, mostly for my mother. She needed a few new tops, and I'm always up for a new dress. So, she got three tshirts, one of which being this really pretty green colour. I got a blue-ish dress that looks adorable on me. Pictures coming from Vegas in it soon. I also picked up another Maureen Johnson book to read on the plane, and my sister finally got around to buying the newest (and last. sob!) Earth's Children book. By Jean Auel. We've definitely been waiting on that book for awhile.

Once we arrived home, it was time for my mother's favourite pre-trip activity: clean the entire house. Not something I rank as highly as her, but necessary none the less. Now my room is all organized, smells nice, and is pretty. Yay!

And on that note, I have to go to school tomorrow morning for my biology and English class. We leave for the airport at three, plane takes off around six. Gotta get through customs and all that though. I'm pretty excited, as it's been nearly 2 years since I've been on a trip! I'll miss everyone though. In my own way.

Nonexistant social skills and making friends.

Most anyone who knows me even the slightest can confirm that fact - I don't know how to act in typical social situations.

That thought has been sitting around in my brain today, as the course registration date for UoL looms closer and closer. I've managed pretty well at not needing to be a people person since I started high school, since I had made from friends in junior high. As for back then, even though my social skills were slightly... stunted, to say the least, I had even managed. I didn't hate people then, I just didn't know how to act.

Before kindergarten, there was about 1 friend I spent time with regularly. She was the daughter of a friend of my parents. I also had to go to daycare one day out of seven (Tuesday's, I think) but I didn't really get along with anyone other than the one already-mentioned friend. I'd love to be able to say "My lack of socializing as a child is the reason I'm so behind!" but I really can't. I probably could have played a bit of catch up. Plus, I spent a lot of time with my parents. So that excuse is invalid.

So if we can't figure out the reason why I'm so socially inept, I guess we can look at the results. I've stayed with the exact same group of 3 friends (myself included) since grade 8, only adding one more in the 10th grade. I can handle making casual acquaintances, but not if they want to do anything outside of spend time together at school. I've stayed away from any school event that could require me to talk to anybody outside of my group of friends. I'm skipping my own grade 12 graduation banquet just so I don't have to see all the people I see in school outside of school.

Now, for me, living this type of lifestyle works. In a high school setting. However, when I move in September, I will be hours away from my three best friends and all of my casual acquaintances. Now, the hard part about moving will not be remaking acquaintances. And in all honesty, I could probably try to survive off just that.

But I kind of like having a few friends. With people I don't know really well, there's so many topics that are off limits (by social norm type things, or just not knowing them enough to talk about it). I don't even remember how I became friends with them. It's been a very very long time since I had to make a friend all on my own- since the 5th grade. I don't remember how to do it.

I'll deal with it, I suppose. It just makes me really nervous that in about 4? 5? months, I'm going to have to start completely from scratch.

Week one- COMPLETE.

Today marks the first week of BEDA done! Yaaaay. We did it guys.

I am now currently sitting in my room, eating cookies, and writing this. I really do lead a thrilling life. You should all be thrilled you get the honour of reading about my day.

I think the first thing I'm going to bring up is that I think the best part about my Friday is when I get home, after I've gotten a big cold bottle of water, something to snack on, and turned my computer on, is opening up my music library. For some reason, deciding what that first song I'm going to listen to is like deciding how I want my weekend to go.

That's probably crazy, but meh.

This weekend was some TV on the Radio, because they're just my favourite and they get me all happy. So right now I'm listening to Wolf Like Me and chair dancing. I definitely know how to have a good time.

I really have no exciting plans this weekend though. Maybe some last minute shopping, and start packing. And massive amount of Minecraft and WoW.

I'd been having a pretty bad craving for chocolate ice cream the past week, so as my reward for finishing my first week of BEDA, I asked my mom to pick me up some and she did! Delicious ice cream is delicious. I really think I could not live without things like ice cream, chocolate, and water. Water is the only one that might be true though.

Is this thing on?

Testing out blogging from my iPad, but there is a chance this may not work as planned. Be warned. If the layout goes completely bonked, I will just repost it from my computer.

Today was a pretty manageable day. I got some more forms from the University of Lethbridge about my course registration, which is only like, 2 weeks away. Terrifying. I'm not completely sure if I am ready for university, but I know that I have to be. So I just deal with it. I just know it's going to be such a massive change from high school. On top of that change, I'll be moving about 2 and a half hours away from Calgary, and the only house I have ever lived in, to a smaller city where I won't know anyone.

Not knowing anyone will be a good chance for a fresh start though. I've never been particularly popular here with the people I go to school with. Getting away from them will be a big step in the right direction of not being an angsty teenager. (That is something I don't consider myself already, though).

Aside from my university turmoil, I had an extremely enjoyable biology test today. Not really though. I'm not going to whine about it, but I am counting down the days left of biology. Definitely not a class I excel at.

Cupcakes, a cat, and a bad day.

First things first: I very obviously forgot to mention the most important detail of my day yesterday, and that needs to be fixed. This very second. I had an amazingly delicious chocolate cupcake in English yesterday. It had purple icing and chocolate-y goodness. My friend Andrea made them and brought one for me and one for Ashley and we ate them and we loved them.

Now that we've gotten that out of the way... That's usually an opening I use when I have something exciting to say. And I really wish I did. I realize now, 6 days into BEDA, why I do not blog this frequently. My life is painfully unexciting, and for me to come up with a creative topic, I must be FEELING creative. Today is not a creative day, nor is it an exciting day.

...I wrote that, felt unmotivated, and walked away from my computer for about 3 hours. I was hoping that would give me something fun to talk about, but it most definitely did not.

I could talk about how adorable my cat is being. He's curled up on my bed, and when I sat down on it, he meowed. Then he turned and looked at me for all of about 2 seconds, before falling back asleep. It doesn't sound as cute as it is to see, I promise.

I don't know guys. I'm not having a good enough day to get the creative juices flowing. I could elaborate on this too. I'm just going to say it's related to biology class and people sucking. I don't wanna call anyone out though. I'm going to play some Robot Unicorn Attack and hope that fixes all the world problems.

We finally bought an iPad!

Yup, you read that right. My sister, mother and I went out after school today and bought the iPad 2.

I've had an iPod Touch since my 16th birthday, so I'm pretty familiar with Apple products. By no means am I fangirl, though, so that may explain why it took us this long to buy an iPad. Yeah, we didn't even get the first one, since I was of the belief it was just a "iPod Touch on drugs". So now we have one, mostly so I have something to do on the plane (and a way to blog while we're not in town. Yes BEDA, I'm not giving up on you!).

Having had an iPod Touch, I know a few apps, so I have a pretty good starting point on ones to get for my iPad. However, if anyone has any suggestions at all, please let me know! I like fun stuff.

As of right now, I am extremely tired. My prediction yesterday was correct- I am getting my mom's cold. So my throat is starting to sound like I am a 90 year old woman, and I have absolutely no energy- meaning this is probably one of the most boring things you've ever read.

I'll stop taking your time after this: I've been considering putting something on the bottom of my posts to track, but have no idea what. Any suggestions for this along with the apps would be appreciated. <3

That terrible moment when you can feel a cold incoming.

My mom has a nasty, icky cold and sore throat right now. She can barely talk, and keeps coughing.

I feel this is important because anyone who knows me will know I tend to get every single cold or flu that comes near me at all. I've already been sneezing a bit, which makes me very concerned that I will be the next victim of the cold my mother has. I really would prefer that didn't happen, seeing as it took me about 3 weeks to fully recover from the last one. Plus, being sick on vacation sucks.

On that note, in exactly a week from the very moment I type this, we will be leaving to go to the airport to leave for Las Vegas. I'm extremely excited, seeing as I was far too sick to enjoy it to the full extent on my last visit. Keep your fingers crossed this time will go better.

I'm still a little sad that my friend and I are both terrible at telling each other when we're going places. Mostly Vegas. I'm going the 11th. He goes the week of the... uhh..

SEE! I don't even know! I just know it's either the week after me, or the week after that. Which is annoying, because it's the second time we've done this. Someday, we'll get to hang out in real life and I can be just as annoying then. I can sing Friday in person!!

Sorry. I'm boring today. I really, really don't mean to be! I'll go back to biology homework now.

Why a good teacher can fix a math hatred

When I started elementary school, I was ahead in a lot of things. I already was a strong reader, I knew how to do some basic math from my sister and father explaining it to me, and I picked up everything else really quickly (except for social skills. Yaaay for no friends growing up!). The reading and learning most things quickly never really went away, thankfully. The math skills, however, did.

I feel like I probably hit my first bump in the third grade. When I was younger, I got nasty colds quite frequently. We learned later it was something wrong with my bronchial tube things. I don't know the details, I just know it still means that terrible cough still hits every year for about a month. But when I was little, it was worse, and it often took me out of school for awhile. I had been out for about two weeks when I came back, and found out my third grade class had done fractions while I was gone.

I still, to this day, don't completely understand how to use fractions. I feel like missing the basics confused me for years, then every time someone would attempt to teach me the basics, I would just shut down, and block them out. It's terrible, and probably what led to the second, larger math bump.

In grade 9, my math class was divided into three sections. For lack of a better name for them, there was a "stupid group", a "medium group" and a "smart group". The stupid group got as much helped as they needed, all the time. The medium got some help. Smart kids did not get ANY help, unless no one in either of the other two groups needed it. I was placed in the smart group, for some reason. I was pulling average grades in math (I was fine at anything that wasn't fraction related) but I was also coded with a "Smart Kid Code" from my IPP. Because I wasn't getting help, or getting my homework checked, I stopped doing any of the work. Meaning I began to fail my tests, and then I had to get a tutor.

Having a tutor helped. It was a friend of mine, and she was my tutor in grade 10 as well, but from that point on (the failing of tests) I began to truly hate math. To try to help myself out, I dropped to the lower level of math for grade 11 and 12 (Applied Math) and it was there that I realized I don't need to be bad at, and hate, math.

I had the same teacher for both years. I'm not gonna name his name due to, you know, privacy reasons, and that could be awkward if he ever found this, but he was awesome. We're gonna call him T. He was the most fun teacher I think I've ever had, and he could explain things so even those of us, like myself, with the largest math blocks, could push through and understand.

I went from my grades only being in the low 70s into high 80s.

I realized I am, in fact, not awful at math. I even have some basics on how to use fractions- or at least, enter them into my calculator properly. I realized I can get good marks in a class that used to make me cry.

Despite the fact I am never, ever taking a math class in my life ever again, I don't cringe at the word "math". Unless it's followed by the word "test".

Waking up at noon isn't as fun as you'd think.

Seriously. It isn't.

My mom got home from New Brunswick yesterday, which meant I was up with her until about 11, when she fell asleep, then I was up until... let's just say it was "very late" before my internet did it's tradition of cutting out so I have to go to bed.

Now I am awake. At noon. Not knowing what to do now that I feel like I wasted the whole day. No matter though, I will hopefully even think of something clever and witty to say.

I actually have a lot of ideas. I thought of them throughout the day yesterday, but I didn't write them down. Sadness. I really wish this wasn't such a fail post. Oh, oh! I have something!

My sister's birthday is tomorrow, which is always exciting. I know what she's getting from myself and my mom. However, I can't post it here. Just in case she stumbles across this. That would prove the statement that people can't trust me with secrets!

Until tomorrow!

That awkward moment when....

You realize you haven't blogged since your dad passed away. Yuuuup, that's me.

Now that we have that awkward moment settled, hey guys! How is everyone? How about that weather? ;)

There. Awkwardness cleared up. I just wanted to let everyone know I'm going to be trying BEDA ((B)log (E)very(d)ay in (A)pril) this year for my first time, and there is a chance I will mess up. A very high chance. Either way, I will be attempting it.

I figured we'll start off slow today. I'll talk about what I've been up to since our last post. On March 9th. Wow.

My dad passed away on the 13th. I was then off school for a week, pretty much just eating massive amounts of Oreo cookies, and moping around. Then I went back to school, realized I can't focus to save my life, and eagerly awaited spring break. I am on spring break now, which just means I am playing way too much World of Warcraft to be healthy, and sleeping in far too late. (When my phone doesn't ring at 8AM in the morning).

My sister, mother and I will be going to Vegas on the 11th until the 15th? I think? But I promise I will try to get posts up then.

I'm not very good at thinking of things to talk about. So if anyone has an suggestions, just let me know in the comments. :)