I have a blog?!

So... is this thing still here?

I miss blogging. I want to start blogging again. Not tonight! But I think the masochist in me is going to do BEDA this month.

Good idea? Bad idea? "Brae isn't going to stick with it" idea? I'm not going to say much today so I don't burn myself out but. YES. Blogging. It's a thing.

Stay tuned! Maybe.

This here is a complete and utter waste of both my time and yours!

I was having one of my lonely nights tonight and was a few paragraphs into a self-loathing blog post about being a forever aloner with no friends (it's one of THOSE nights) before I realized I need to get out of that mindset. So here I am. With a cheery post.

I have to wake up at 4:45 tomorrow to register for next semesters classes, meaning I should probably be asleep right now. Sadly, I'm pretty much unable to fall asleep before midnight, so I'm killing time by rewatching my favourite Minecraft video series (the Yogscast, for anyone who is curious). I'm sure how much I keep bursting into giggles at things they say isn't helping my body decide it's sleepy time, or helping my sister fall asleep as her room is right down the hall.

Speaking of next semester, I decided I'm registering for Sociology 1000, Linguistics 2600, Methods and Statistics in Psychology (I forget the number for it) and a history class about politics in Europe from 1750-1914, or something. Nothing terribly exciting, seeing as I'm only taking History 1000, Psychology 1000 and Linguistics 2300 right now. I'm actually doing fairly well gradewise. It's just the social aspect I'm still absolute shit at. The only person in the city I'm friends with is definitely still my sister.

My birthday is also in like, 6 sleeps or something! November 30th! I'll be 18, meaning I can legally vote and drink and all that lovely stuff that comes with adulthood in Alberta. My sister has something planned for my birthday, although I have NO idea what, and then on the weekend after it my mom is coming down, and so is one of me and my sister's friends. So I get to see them and stuff. I'm also going to buy myself a birthday present because STEAM SALES OH MY GOD!

This has been a terrible blog post better suited for my piece of shit tumblr than my real blog, but was posted here because my tumblr only gets 4 sentences max posts.

I have lots of excuses, honest!

I even made the excuses for my ridiculously long absence in a nice, tidy little list that I can show you and elaborate on each point! After you see this, there's no way you can be mad at my disappearance. I hope.

Reasons I've been severely neglecting my lovely blog

1) Reddit
I discovered and gained a full on addiction to reddit. I had heard of the site through two people that usually tend to know things I'll get addicted to, and I actually listened to the second one when he told me I should start going on it. Now that I've started, I can't stop. There are subreddits for EVERYTHING I love - the Slytherin subreddit is full of ridiculously nice snake-type people, for example. Also lots of funny pictures. I'm also not afraid to deny that reddit has COMPLETELY replaced tumblr as my place to waste time.

2) Making a Steam account
Another one of those things that some of my best friends have been after me to do for awhile now. I finally decided to listen to them. I will admit I only have... 8 games right now, but having more games I can waste time on is definitely a bonus, and Steam rocks because it means I can more easily play the games with people. AND ACHIEVEMENTS. I love achievements for no real reason other than they make me happy.
(speaking of steam accounts, if anyone wants to add me, my steam name thing is bumblelikeabee, just let me know if you're adding me before you do!)

3) Skyrim
Sort of a subsection of the "making a Steam account" but has consumed my life this week so much, I felt it deserved its own point. Skyrim is an absolutely fantastic lovely game that I had no intention of playing. I had been listening to my friend go on and on about how excited he was for it to come out for months, and then November 11th rolled around, and he was just playing it and everyone else in the world was playing it and I felt left out. So naturally, I whined to my mother to buy it for me. She did a few days later, and in the 6 days I've had it, I've played 32 hours. I'm doing better than one of my friends - he's played over 100 hours. There is so much to do in this game. I could write a whole blog post about it. Hell, I could write a whole series of blog posts. SUCH A GOOD GAME.

4) Actually doing schoolwork
I know, shocking. I'm actually doing relatively well - my disgusting history essay got a 90%, and most of my midterms ended up in the 80% range. I've actually been putting a little bit of effort into my grades for the first time since like, the 7th grade. Feels weird.


That's about it. I know it doesn't seem like much to anybody else, considering that it's just the normal stuff most people do minus any socializing (I literally don't know anybody in Lethbridge besides my older sister). To me that is a lot of stuff to do all at once, especially considering how much time I love wasting on video games... and reddit.

I actually have another blog post I've been half writing and half deleting for about a month now. I know I consider this to be my place to write down anything and everything that I'm feeling, but this one is just hard to write. It's even harder to imagine posting. One of these days I'll finish it, but since it's me we're talking about, it might now be for another month or two. Sorry about that.

I also considered doing NaNoWriMo this month, until I remembered how ridiculously busy my schoolwork was. Really, I had my essay, a midterm, and 2 assignments I had to do, and by the time I was finished with those, I was too exhausted to imagine trying to work on any of my novel ideas. I know that's a terrible excuse, but I can't handle intense amounts of stress.

I promise I'll try to update sooner guys. I missed this!

Why I am sadly not doing BEDA.

I really, really wanted to do BEDA again this month. Or maybe even VEDA, because one of these days, I'll stop feeling so awkward whenever I try to film a video. I seriously have about 6 tries on my camera of me starting my first vlog, panicking, and turning the camera off.

However, there are a variety of reasons this is a bad idea. First, I will have no internet for a week while I am in Florida. That makes it impossible for me to post a blog everyday in April. Secondly, I can't do it. I just have so little energy lately that getting up in the morning drains me. I have a ton of stuff I'd love to post, don't get me wrong. It's just that whenever I try, I get overwhelmed with the task, start crying, and close blogger.

In less stressful news, I got into Pottermore. I got in the 2nd day, with MidnightPheonic157. However, I managed to break that account. It won't let me log in. So I re-registered, twice to be safe, and got CrimsonProphecy22 and StarShadow144. I love all of my usernames, but if I discover any of my friends without them when we're able to log in, I will have one if not two accounts to let them use.

And that's the point where I got hit with the overwhelming fact that this needs to be remotely readable and I should just delete it now. Since the information is slightly important though, this post will not self-destruct, and will just appear in its terrible state.

People who actually blog this much all the time are crazy.

IT HAS BEEN 28 DAYS HOW CAN YOU EXPECT ME TO FIND MORE TO WRITE ABOUT.

I apologize. Had to get that part of of my system.

Tomorrow will be the start of "Brae's first time being all alone for over one night" as my mom leaves for Vegas (AGAIN. Did I post about this before? I feel like I did) and I am a bit terrified. My sister will be home 2 of the nights, and I either get one of my friends one night and one the next... or just of my friends one of the nights. The awkwardness that would occur if they were both there at the same time would eat my soul alive.

Something absolutely hilarious did hit me today. I have two friends I used to be very close with (at different times though) that both live in Orlando. In case you forgot, I'll be in Orlando this summer. However, I am not on speaking terms with either of them anymore. What makes it so funny though, is both of them had both really wanted to hang out with me but I had no way to be there. And now... Yup.

Also. The happy weather we had earlier this week? It's all gone today. It's almost May. It's SNOWING. Calgary, why must you do this to me? I am so done with cold and snow. I want to wear t-shirts and dresses. Not sweaters.

A week of homework...

In one day, is not a good idea.

I've spent all of today on and off doing homework. And plan to spend the rest of the night doing it. As such, my brain is so full of English homework about poetry I don't particularly care about, I have nothing exciting to say. So... first 10 things that come to my mind, go!

1) I am super, super excited for The Hobbit movie. I'm a massive LOTR nerd, and it... looks like it's going to be good.
2) I know I don't like talking about gaming on here, but... Tanking Heroic Chimereon was terrifying tonight. I had to watch CDs and watch the other tank's HP and his Double Attacks and... yeah. Scary.
3) There's a cupcake sitting on my desk. I would like to eat it. I think I will do that.
4) I'm kind of considering staying up all night to do homework, but I'd rather sleep.
5) I definitely have no focus on anything ever, whatsoever.
6) I don't like arguing.
7) I can't blog. :( /deleteblog.