I got an award?! ME?!

So I log in, start up my blog about my travels, when I check the little box on the bottom of the Blogger homepage (does this box have a name? I like to hope it has a name) and read some of the posts of the people I follow. And oh my goodness, I got chosen by the fantastic Twitch of Twitchverse for the "I Dig Your Blog" award.

I never win awards. This is so exciting.



Thank the person who gave you this award:
Thank you so much Twitch! You were actually one of the first people who followed me, and I love reading your posts. We were BEDA buddies in April :D so many <3s.

Reveal 3 random facts about yourself:

1. I'm probably the only person I know who prefers an e-reader to actual books. So convenient.
   
2. I don't really like gum very much, but if I ever have it in my room, I always chew it compulsively.
3. Despite the amount of time I spend on computers, I'm an awful typer. I never learned how to do it correctly, and while I can type quickly, I make a lot of mistakes.
   

Pass on the award:

I'm not very good at the "pass the award on" thing, as most of the blogs I read don't read mine. I do know the lovely Chi though, who I'd like to pass this on too. She's great and so is her blog. :)

Thanks so much! I'll return to my scheduled Florida posts in a few days. :)

Welcome to Pottermore! (SPOILERS!)

YES! I got my Pottermore letter today. I checked my email as soon as I woke up, and ended up squealing so loudly my mom came running.



If anyone else is on, I'm using MidnightPhoenix157 as my username. Add me as a friend! I didn't manage to screenshot my wand sadly, but I have the screenshot of my main profile page, so I'll post that and just tell you about my wand using the extra information about wand woods and cores. Speaking of extra information, I'm not going to spoil anything, but McGonagall's backstory is my absolute favourite. I loved it so much.




Isn't it pretty? As you can probably guess, I got Slytherin. NO, I DID NOT CHEAT. I answered honestly and my gut on which house I was the whole time was right. I'm a Slytherin!



My wand ended up Larch with Dragon core, eleven and three quarter inches, surprisingly swishy. Apparently, that all boils down to this:

Larch: Strong, durable and warm in colour, larch has long been valued as an attractive and powerful wand wood. Its reputation for instilling courage and confidence in the user has ensured that demand has always outstripped supply. This much sought-after wand is, however, hard to please in the matter of ideal owners, and trickier to handle than many imagine. I find that it always creates wands of hidden talents and unexpected effects, which likewise describes the master who deserves it. It is often the case that the witch or wizard who belongs to the larch wand may never realise the full extent of their considerable talents until paired with it, but that they will then make an exceptional match.
- Taken from Ollivander's notes about wands.

Dragon: As a rule, dragon heartstrings produce wands with the most power, and which are capable of the most flamboyant spells. Dragon wands tend to learn more quickly than other types. While they can change allegiance if won from their original master, they always bond strongly with the current owner. The dragon wand tends to be easiest to turn to the Dark Arts, though it will not incline that way of its own accord. It is also the most prone of the three cores to accidents, being somewhat temperamental.
- Also taken from Ollivander's notes about wands.

Overall, I'm pretty excited about Pottermore so far. It's super fun. Brewing potions is fun, and while I'm not completely sold on the casting of spells, I think I'll get there. The artwork is absolutely amazing. I'm loving the "find the various objects" like Chocolate Frog cards and books. There's definitely some work that needs to be done (a bit more interactivity at parts, sound effects) but it's a great experience. Good luck to everyone still waiting for their welcome emails!

I leave on Saturday!!

I am extremely excited for Florida, can you tell? :)

To kill time before we leave, I've been doing mundane little stuff like getting my hair cut. Do you want to see it? Of course you do. You have no choice in the matter. That is why this is my blog.

I know, it's nice. I have a neat little bang. The observant folk may notice I switched back from my green glasses to my blue ones. When I had to get a new prescription for my eyes, I decided I liked my blue ones better and missed them. The switch was made. That is also when I got my prescription sunglasses, which I promise you'll see in the Florida videos and pictures.

Hmm, what else has been going on? Other than a severe change to my sleeping patterns (I am permanently stuck on 'sleep from 7AM until 3PM' right now) I think that's all that's new in the "what I've done" and the "random thoughts I've had" are better saved for their own posts. Speaking of new posts.

I will not be posting while in Florida. I know I said that before. Ideally, I will be doing a post on the 20th while we're in the airport before we leave, and another one on the 27th when we're in the airport in Orlando before we come home. This is best case scenario, and we all know how extremely flaky I can be.

That's about it, blog. I'll try to finish the My Little Pony customization I've been putting off. I was very upset as to how different the ponies they sell at stores are from the ones in the show, hair-wise, so I decided I was going to fix them. I still need to buy Rainbow Dash and Twilight Sparkle though. :(

Late night Pottermore Sorting anxiety.

I, along with nearly every other Harry Potter fan, am waiting for my Pottermore Welcome email.

I know I will not get mine right away. I registered on Day 2, because I didn't even see Day 1's clue go up. But I still can't help but avoid sleep, spam refresh on my email account, and squeak when I see a new email. These new emails are never from Pottermore. They are from Tumblr, or they are from Facebook. To that, I have to say, "Stop reblogging my shit/messaging me."

I'm scared to get into Pottermore though.

I've always been very sure I was a Slytherin. I know that's what I am. Yet there is still this small part at the back of my mind nagging that, "You might be a Gryffindor! Or a Ravenclaw! Or even a Hufflepuff!" Not that I hate any of those houses. I love me some Hufflepuffs. I just don't feel like I can relate to them all that well.

On top of all that, I'm scared I won't get my email before I leave for Florida. While I am in Florida, I am going to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter at Universal. I will be purchasing stuff there, as my mother doesn't like me ordering merch off the internet. What if I go, and buy Slytherin stuff, and THEN I GET PUT INTO A DIFFERENT HOUSE?

This is the stuff that keeps me awake at night. :(

Brae has too many emotions.

I can't promise my timelines to be 100% accurate in here. While it's all things that happened, the order of it all gets a bit jumbled in my head. :(

I have a huge emotional... lump just sitting here in my head. It won't go away when I try to ignore it. It won't go away when I cry about it. And it won't go away when I remind myself it's useless. So we're going to try what I hoped would be the unnecessary last resort - talking about it. Due to the circumstances of me being utterly pathetic, the person related to said emotional lump is unavailable to talk to. Perhaps he is available, physically, but not emotionally to me.

I can already tell this is one of those posts no one reads and I want no one to read. Apologies in advance for utter lack of sense made.

I spend a lot of time on the internet. It may be due to my crippling anxiety with actual social situations, or it may just be that I tend to like the people I meet online more than the people I've been forced to interact with in real life. But the point is, I like to be online. I like to play video games online. I like to spend time with people on these video games online, and I like to become their friend. That is how I met him. It was a little bit over a year ago, when I was in a guild that I was happy with at the time and became increasingly unhappy with over time. He was a super nice guy- he joined with another guy and a girl, whom everyone assumed he was dating. He wasn't.

I ended up spending a lot of time talking to him. He was one of the people who could handle me on both my up days and my down days. He was there to stand up for me when idiots were bothering me. He liked listening to my stories, or at least pretended he did. That was more than most anyone else ever did and has done. I ended up developing a bit of a crush on him, which I knew probably wasn't the best idea because it was strikingly obvious to everybody he liked the girl who he had joined with.

I couldn't really help that I liked him though. We stayed friends. I continued to like him. I continued to talk to my other in-game friends. He made very, very good friends with another girl who I didn't particularly like. I tried to ignore that.

It was around then where the reason we essentially stopped being friends for awhile came up. I'm pretty sure this had taken place before I ever outright told him I liked him, although subtlety has never been my strongest suit. And because of that, I am sure other people knew that I liked him too, even if I was spending a bit less time with him than before (I tried to get over the crush, lol). I was just talking with 2 of my other female friends, when one of them just said... something. Something that still stings me to write or think of, and it's something I don't really want on my blog.

As soon as I saw that, I left the chat with the two of them. I began avoiding them, and because it related to him, I began to avoid him too. I ignored things he said to me, I logged off in the middle of him trying to talk to me. In short, I was outright rude. To this day, I don't think he knows why I was so upset with him and our other friends, and I don't think I ever plan to tell him. I don't consider what I did to be my proudest moment.

During that, we had one conversation. I remember vividly telling him that I'd had a crush on him. I don't think I made it clear how much of one, but I remember telling him. Then I went to go see How to Train Your Dragon, and cried during that over him. And over the movie. That movie is still one of my favourite movies.

Then we went on and off for not talking, then kind of awkwardly talking, then not talking again for months. He took a break from the game. Then he was back. Then he took another break, until... I'd like to say early July. This July. I know it was July because I was waiting to see Harry Potter. We talked for a bit and I added him on an instant messaging, because he was only back for a week.

It was then that I finally admitted the full scope of my feelings. And then proceeded to try to avoid him for a few days. Which has now turned into a month.

So I just feel very, very confused. It's obvious to me that I still obviously feel something, and it must be clear to him too. It's also very clear he does not feel something, considering most of our conversation revolved around the previously mentioned girl he spent a lot of time with, who I didn't like. I don't know how I feel right now. Maybe I'm just overemotional and a mess, but I feel like I genuinely was expecting something different when we starting talking again. And since things didn't turn out different, maybe I'm just moping around.

I don't feel like I could ever talk to him about all this. I feel like he wouldn't really appreciate it. And I think now that I've let some of this out, maybe I'll actually move past it. Maybe I'll be less of a pathetic, stupid mess. Unlikely though.

Why I am sadly not doing BEDA.

I really, really wanted to do BEDA again this month. Or maybe even VEDA, because one of these days, I'll stop feeling so awkward whenever I try to film a video. I seriously have about 6 tries on my camera of me starting my first vlog, panicking, and turning the camera off.

However, there are a variety of reasons this is a bad idea. First, I will have no internet for a week while I am in Florida. That makes it impossible for me to post a blog everyday in April. Secondly, I can't do it. I just have so little energy lately that getting up in the morning drains me. I have a ton of stuff I'd love to post, don't get me wrong. It's just that whenever I try, I get overwhelmed with the task, start crying, and close blogger.

In less stressful news, I got into Pottermore. I got in the 2nd day, with MidnightPheonic157. However, I managed to break that account. It won't let me log in. So I re-registered, twice to be safe, and got CrimsonProphecy22 and StarShadow144. I love all of my usernames, but if I discover any of my friends without them when we're able to log in, I will have one if not two accounts to let them use.

And that's the point where I got hit with the overwhelming fact that this needs to be remotely readable and I should just delete it now. Since the information is slightly important though, this post will not self-destruct, and will just appear in its terrible state.