Tuesday, February 14, 2012

On being that overly emotional kid we all hate.

Sometimes, I cry over silly things in movies or books that aren't supposed to make me cry.

I cry easily. Everyone who knows me at all knows that. I cry at the normal things movies expect us to cry over of course. It also affects little things though. Little things they add to get a little more of an audience reaction/attachment to the character or plot or something. For example, I finally watched The Princess and the Frog. I'm assuming people have seen it, but obligatory SPOILER WARNING. I pretty much sobbed as soon as it hinted that her dad died, and anytime he was mentioned afterwards. I will admit that I have an overly strong reaction to that sort of thing, seeing as its been less than a year since I lost my dad, but still. I don't think their intention was to turn me into a mess. And don't get me started on when Ray died and became a star up beside "Evangeline." I'm tearing up thinking about it.

And if you think I cried a lot there, don't get me started on Up. Or any Pixar movie, really.

It isn't just movies though. Songs are bad too. I'll often find myself just idly listening to Pandora and BAM, I'm sobbing because some Sufjan Stevens song was more sad than expected. Have you ever heard Romulus by him? I lost it the first time I heard it, likely because of the sad idea of the grandfather dying in a hospital... Even just the other night Casimir Pulaski Day came on and I started crying imagining some poor girl dying of cancer. NOPE. Too sad for me. There are more songs that I cry when I hear then it is normal or healthy.

Pretty much anything can make me cry. Books (there really is a reason I haven't read TFioS yet), songs, movies, blog posts, Internet comics, video games (I LOST IT at the end of Bastion, my god), TV shows (My Little Pony, anyone?) It isn't fun. I'm almost ashamed to do anything in public at risk of sobbing. I was reading a reddit post in my lecture hall and I had to try to hold back sobs. Movie theaters aren't enjoyable because I have to pretend I'm not crying.

I do not like it. At all.